I HATE YOU, I LOVE YOU
This story is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and events are the product of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead is purely coincidental.
Read at your own risk. 
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ROSALYN
"Rosalyn, are you done?"
"Yes, Daddy!"
I check myself once again in the mirror and was satisfied with my look today. Today was Aunt Cathy and Uncle Kiero's wedding anniversary.
"Daddy look at me."
I smiled at my Daddy Jeff and turned around. I look pretty in this dress!
"Oh, my pretty daughter."
Daddy's smile widened and kiss my cheeks before getting his phone, he told me to pose and take pictures of me while we are waiting for Daddy Alvin.
"Another one, Yes that's perfect!"
Then Daddy Alvin was smiling at us as he walk towards our direction.
"And what are you two doing?"
"Our baby was really pretty Al, look at our Rosalyn."
"Daddy stop acting like that, I'm not getting married!"
I said shyly and they both laughed.
"As I would like to see you in a wedding dress, my dear, you are still young and I'm still not ready."
"Chill Dad, I'm not going to get married. I don't have a boyfriend remember?"
"Silly, you'll have soon. And a few years later you two will decide to get married."
"We still have many years ahead. No one's going to leave."
We take a few photos before we head straight to the resort. There are already guests when we arrived and we immediately find and greet Aunt Cathy and Uncle Kiero.
"Happy Wedding Anniversary, Cathy, Kiero."
"Jeff, Alvin! Thank you, it's good to see you two again."
"So, where's Kattie?"
"She texted me that she'll be here in a minute, come and join us."
"Thank you."
"Aunt Cathy and Uncle Kiero, Happy Wedding Anniversary."
I said happily and kiss Aunt Cathy's cheek.
"Thank you, Rosalyn. It's been a while since I saw you and you look very pretty."
"Thank you, Ah Aunt where's Jasmin?"
"Hmm, Jas. I think she's with Jasper, maybe they're at the beach."
"Okay. Daddy, I'll just look for Jasmin."
"Mm. Don't go far okay?"
"Yes."
I kissed both of their cheeks and look around. I look for her at the beach but Jasmin and Jasper were not there. I was about to go back when I saw Allen it's a bit awkward to be with him.
"Hey, what a coincidence to see you here."
"Hi, Allen. Nice to see you here."
"What are you doing here?"
"I'm looking for my friend."
"Oh, do you want me to accompany you?"
"No, it's fine. I'm good... Jasmin was probably inside."
"You are still pretty awkward to me."
When he pointed that out and my eyes widened and immediately shake my head to deny it.
"Of course not. It's now in the past and we were too young at that time. We are good friends now, right?"
"You said that. Still, I want to say sorry again for teasing you back then."
"Yeah, then I'll go inside now. Nice to see you again, Allen."
"Can you call my real name once again?"
I stare at him for a moment and nod my head. We used to be in the same orphanage back then and unlike me who didn't change my name when I got adopted, Allen changed his.
"Nice to see you again, Jude."
I smile at him and immediately left him there, as I walk back towards the venue I saw Jasmin's back and spotted Nicholas too. They were talking about something and I can't help but listen to their conversation.
"Don't compare me to that person. And it's not like I'm interested in him nor Rosalyn."
I rolled my eyes when he said that in a bored tone but Jasmin just laughed. I watch them together and can't help to laugh when Jasmin once again teases him. She was poking Nicholas and was murmuring...
"You are just jealous, you old man."
Him? Jealous? No, the word jealous doesn't exist in his world. Your cousin doesn't like me. That's it.
"Stop it Jas, I'm not really interested in her. She is not my type okay?"
"See?"
I was about to call them when Jasmin suddenly ask a very intriguing question. My heart was beating fast as I stood there and listen to their conversation.
"Then who is the person you do like, and by that, I will stop teasing you."
"I'm sure you don't know her but I do have a crush on Jade, she was not on the same level with Rosalyn so stop teasing me to her. It's kinda annoying you know."
I frowned and looked from afar. 'She was not on the same level with Rosalyn.' How heartless of you Nicholas, to say that you really mean it.
I feel a very strange pain in my chest the moment I heard that. Sheez, what's wrong with me?
"Okay then. Wahh Rosalyn!"
I look at Jasmin who run towards me and hugged me. I pat Jasmin's head and look straight at Nicholas. I saw how he raised his eyebrows so I rolled my eyes at him.
"Long time no see too, Nicholas."
He just stood right there, his hands both in his pockets. A pair of blue-green eyes that have been bothering me are looking plainly at me. He was now taller than me, his hair are well trimmed and shaved, a two-block haircut I think. It was really unfair, how can I still say that he look handsome after he said that?
"You hear that, I bet he was just inventing that name Jade."
I shrug my shoulders and Jasmin sighed. Maybe Jasmin was right, he might be inventing the Jade girl.
"As if."
"Are you sure that she was better than Rosalyn?"
Jasmin crossed her arms and glared at Nicholas. But his face remains the same. Then he started to point out how high she is.
"Yes, Jade can dance, Rosalyn can't. She was also a model, she can paint and play piano, Jade's really talented, smart, and beautiful. If you want when I see her I will definitely introduce her to all of you."
I pinch my hands and nod my head. Okay, I heard it loud and clear, Nicholas, she's more talented than me and pretty too.
"It's fine."
I said and Nicholas sighed. You really doesn't need to rub it on my face. I do get it.
"Yes, I want to meet her."
My mouth drops at Jasmin and I shake her hand. I bite my lip and pinch my hands harder so that I won't feel the pain in my chest anymore. What if he really introduces her to all of us?
"Jade, you say?"
Our attention goes to Jasper who suddenly showed up and pats Nicholas' shoulders.
"Yes, does she exist?"
Jasmin asked and Jasper nodded. Jasper smiled at me.
"Mm, she's pretty and she does have a crush on our cousin here."
"Stop joking okay? You two were always making stories. And how come I haven't heard of her?"
Jasmin rolled her eyes and cling to me. I pat her hands so she'll calm down a little.
"Jas, you can stop now."
"We are not making stories okay? She was famous at our university. Are you really studying at St. Blaire? How come you haven't heard her name?"
"Nye, nye! Stop talking, whoever she is I do not know her. So she is not that famous. Hhmp!"
"You're not a child anymore so act like an adult."
"So what? Just admit that you two are lying. Jade girl don't exist!"
"She does exist! You dumb Jasmin."
"Nincompoop!"
"Ugly!"
Jasper and Jasmin continue to argue while we are staring at each other for a minute, he was just looking at me with a blank face so I then averts my gaze from him and sighed.
"Let's eat, Jas. I'm a bit hungry."
"Okay!"
"Don't worry Rosalyn, he doesn't deserve you."
"Yeah, and yes I'm not that talented, I can't dance, and have the confidence to do modeling, can't paint but at least I know I'm smart and pretty."
"Yeah, as if I was interested in you."
I grit my teeth and shouted at him.
"I hate you! I'm... I'm also not interested in you!"
"Same here. I know the fact that we hate seeing each when we do crossed paths, so please refrain from sneering. Let's just say that you don't see me, and I don't see you. Act like I was not existing at all, and I'll do the same. I hope that was clear to you."
He look at me from head to toe and left first. Jasper then wave his hand at me and said his goodbye.
"Nice to see you again, Rosalyn. Don't be jealous of Jade that's bad for the heart!"
"Just go away!"
"I really hate that jerk. I..."
And then tears started to fall from my eyes, I can't believe I was crying over that.
"Hieek, stop crying, Rosalyn. My cousin was such a cold-hearted person. He was such a jerk, right?"
"I hate you, damn you."
Sheez, when did it start? Ahh, Right.
When I was still in the orphanage, I can still recall my mother's appearance who abandoned me.
She was beautiful. She always wears makeup and only wears designer clothes all the time her lips were always painted with red lipstick, she wore her expensive jewelry all the time, and her blond hair that was always curled. My mother was a well-known model, I do love her but she doesn't like me...
I don't remember who is my father but I still remember my mother's face at that time.
I was too young and naïve that time, a six-year-old me who was hoping that my mother will come back for me. I never lise hope that she will come back for me.
A little memory of Jude who likes to tease me when we were still young.
"Hey, the ugly newcomer dinner is ready."
"I'm not ugly."
"Heh, so you're telling me that you were pretty?"
The kids laugh and started to tease me everyone was chanting ugly as they pointed at me.
"I knew it Jude likes to tease me since he does have a crush on me."
"As if!"
And the time when I was adopted by Daddy Alvin and Daddy Jeff I was scared. Because if the adoption papers happen to be approved they will get me and my mother won't be able to find me.
"I knew the moment I saw her she was the one I want to adopt."
"I also want Rosalyn."
That was the words that my Daddy Alvin and Daddy Jeff said that day. The process of adaptation was fast at that time because they just waited for a month and when it was approved they immediately went back to the orphanage and get me.
I was crying that time, grabbing Sister Alysa since I don't want to be with them.
It takes me months to finally accept them as my new family. I'm glad that they love me as their own child.
"Rosalyn we will go to my friend's house. You'll like it there since Kattie and Catherine's children were there."
"Are they nice?"
I hug my doll and Daddy Jeff smiled at me. He pats my hair and nods his head.
"Of course."
"Then I would like to come, Daddy."
That day I make friends with them and Jasmin was super nice. She was always smiling brightly and I like playing with dolls with her. Jasper and Nicholas, on the other hand, were silent, I don't know if they were nice. They hate playing with dolls and their focus was watching cars on a phone.
"Nicholas..."
"Hmm?"
He look at me and I smiled at him. I showed the doll to him and wave its hands.
"Play with us."
"I don't want to. Dolls are for girls. Go play with Jasmin."
"Hmp!"
I ran away from him and was about to go back to Jasmin when I saw a familiar face. Even from afar, I know it was her.
"Mother..."
I look left and right and when no one notice me since they were busy talking I ran outside and follow the car shouting my mother's name. I just run and run following the car and when I stop catching my breath all I can do was to look at the car. I was crying as I stopped and look around, I don't know where I am right now.
I don't know how to get back since I'm not familiar on that place, I just walk around until I reached a playground. There is no one around and helplessly I sat on the bench there.
"Why are you crying?"
I look shocked at Nicholas who was sitting beside me, I didn't know when did he sit beside me but it was sure scary.
"How did you f-find me?"
"I accidentally saw you while I was buying Ice Cream."
"I want to go back n-now."
"Okay. You want ice cream?"
I look at the chocolate ice cream on his hand, and even though I was tempted to nod my head I still shake my head.
"No, I'm good."
"Your such a liar."
"Shut up, hngg."
I sniff and wipe the tears on my face then he reached for my hand and give his Ice cream.
"You should stop crying now, you look ugly."
I glared at him but he just stare at me and stand up.
"Let's go, follow me."
"O-okay. Ah, Nicholas thank you for the Ice Cream."
"It's nothing. I do not like chocolate."
I look at the Chocolate flavored Ice Cream in my hand, he doesn't want chocolate then why did he buy it?
He was cool at that time that I want him to continue to look at me as we grow up together. Yeah, that was the time that I wish that he will pay his attention to me.
"But that doesn't mean that I have romantic feelings for him. That was impossible. I should stick on hating him not lo-. Shit. This damn heart of mine, how dare you betray me."
This is scary, there is something that creeps inside me. Haa, this is really insane. I'm going insane right now.
"I really hate you."
-IAmRoseee