Love the sinner, Hate the sin 25.
The Wallflower
Seth didn't look in my direction,He was focusing on his laptop and I just couldn't take it anymore.
" We are going for a trip not to work, I said, closing his laptop. Seth didn't say anything, he just gave me this dark scary glare.
" Don't look at me like that, I glared darkly back at him.
" You know I am wondering where all this confidence is coming from, You didn't have it a few weeks ago "Seth held the hands I used in grabbing his laptop fiercely, His fingers were hurting me but I needed this bad girl attitude to keep myself going.
" You are not as tough as you think, I said, trying to let go of my hands.
" Why do you always choose to make me annoyed ??? Seth asked.
" Why do you always act like you can do everything on your own ???? I fired back.
" Excuse me, Seth paused.
" You heard me right, You act so cold and when you always want to push people away from you even when you need them, That's just insane...I yelled at him.
" I never asked for anyone's help, Seth spoke in a soft tone. I have never heard him speak so calmly before.
" The world doesn't evolve under your feet, I said. Seth didn't reply but just concentrated on his phone. The van was quiet throughout the whole ride and it was weirdly uncomfortable.
" We are here, Paul announced.
" We are here,'' I smiled.
This place has an old memory cemented in my heart. It's the orphanage home I grew up in with my sister. It was the one place that made me smile and be happy effortlessly.
" What's this place??? Seth asked, wearing his face cap and mask.
" It's the best place you need to help with your focus, I smiled.
" Sandra you are here, Rachel welcomed us, Before I came with Seth I already made plans with Rachel, We grew up together, She know works here with the sisters as a learning assistant. She knows everything about me and Sandra but she chose to play along, Let's say she's repaying an old favor.
" This way please, Rachel didn't know who I was with but I told her he was someone popular and his company would donate to the home for she acted cool and like he was a nobody, Since I had Mrs. Tae mo permission she agreed to donate to the home.
" What are we doing here ???? Is this the trip you wouldn't stop talking about??? Seth asked.
" This place is perfect for our next therapy session, I said.
" We are here...I bet it hasn't changed, Rachel said to me.
" It hasn't changed one bit I smiled. I could tell Seth was amazed by what he was seeing. The Love Garden was a place that was a great epitome of beauty. The flowers and water spring added to what made it beautiful and special.
" What do you think ??? I asked Seth.
" It's okay….Seth said.
" Okay really!!!! Rachel looked at Seth.
" It's beautiful, Seth said.
" See you around, Rachel left.
" I can tell you are impressed by what you see, I smiled...
" How did you know about this place???? Seth asked, looking around.
" Well, let's say I know a friend,'' I smiled.
" Hmmm, so what are we doing here??? Seth asked
" Therapy... What else??? I grabbed his shirt and led him to where we will be having our session. I already asked Rachael to help make the place conducive enough for us and I could see she did her best.
" Woooowwww there still serves the best tea, I said, sipping from my teacup.
" You have been in Japan for a long time. How did you know about a place located in such a rural area???? Seth asked.
" Aishhh I am from this city anyways, I smiled.
" What exactly are we going to do here???? Seth asked.
" What do you think??? I asked.
" I don't know, You brought me here, after all, Seth scoffed.
" Come with me, I stood up and led the way. We passed different flowers and water springs and we finally stopped in the middle of the garden.
" Beautiful flower isn't it ???? I asked, pointing at a particular unique flower.
" Is it the only one not blooming???? Seth asked.
" Yes, it has always been like this. How many do you think don't bloom like this one in this garden???? I asked.
" How am I supposed to know that????
" Why don't you find out? We will commence Therapy immediately after you go round the garden and tell me how many of this exact flower doesn't bloom,'' I ordered.
" Was that an order???? Seth frowned...
" You have a duet with one of the music industry's best female icons. You have to clear your mind and avoid any episode as soon as possible. They're not going to give you signs so it's better to help overcome it sooner. You have three months before the duet….I said.
" This flower ??? Seth asked, staring at him.
" Yes….I smiled and went back to my chair, Seth started his search while I fed on old memories I had in this garden, I recalled vividly the first time I met Leo, He was crying and wailing here because he was scolded for not doing chores, He tried to jump the fence but he broke his ankle, He was very playful and sweet back then and even when we grew up but it bothers me everyday what was his reason to shove me off like that.
" Three…. Seth spoke up.
" What !!!!
" Three of these flowers don't bloom but the rest bloom perfectly,'' Seth said.
" Pathetic!!! I snickered.
" What !!!!
" I didn't expect you to get it correctly, You seem to be so smart but this is one task that is too difficult for a heavy mind, I scoffed.
" What do you mean???? Seth asked.
" It's nine, not three...I smiled.
" What !!!!
" You got used to seeing one wall so whenever you walked pass it, You feel it's the same wall you passed before…. It's simple logic...I smiled.
" I don't understand….
" You see it's nine exact walls, not three walls but you feel you walked pass three same walls, Three different times so every new flower you see you ignore….
" Why is it the exact same flower and wall then ????
" That's why it's a mind game... Don't you think this wall is significant to something???? I asked.
" What????
" You kept every picture of the three wall locked in your brain and refused to let go of the old picture and see the new one because it seems to be exact, So you let the old picture take it over and that's why you feel like it's three flowers, not nine but if you want I can actually prove it to you, I said.
Seth kept quiet for a while and it looked like he was flashing back and he let out a heavy sigh.
" You are right, Seth said.
" Do you want to know what it's similar to ???? I asked.
" What !!!
" Your bad memories, Your Trauma, Your past which adds up to make your different personalities… You have to let go of your old memories to free up space for new ones, Your personality seems to change because you evolve around exact emotions and you always seem to react to them differently that's why you have diverse personalities, The easiest way of getting rid of your old memories is making new ones and trashing the old ones If only you can open up a little bit and try to flush some memories and grudges out my job would have been easier.
" We just need to tackle one person out of my memory and the rest will fall in place, Seth frowned.
" Who ????
" My father, Seth, groaned.
" Huh !!!!
" I guess that's all for today, Let's go...Seth ordered.
" What do you mean when you say that???? I pestered Seth during the ride back home.
" You are the psychiatrist, Figure him out...Seth plugged his ear pod and left me wondering if his father was the key to my solving Seth's problem. After all, he has few personalities linked to him. Immediately after we got home I rushed down from the car and ran inside. I wanted to do some background check on Seth's family and most importantly his father.
" Ohhhhh Sandra how was the trip??? Adrian asked, his face was beaming with smiles and I already knew why he was so happy.
" Where is everyone???? Seth asked.
" Cinema room, They are watching a movie... Adrian replied.
" Do they even have time for that, Seth scoffed and walked away.
" Where are you rushing to????? I haven't thanked you for what happened with Lisa. Adrian smiled.
"Ohhhhh !!!! Are you guys happy together???? I asked.
" Yes, Thanks to you she wants to push it together. What did you tell her ????
" The poison therapy, I said.
" Huh !!!! But that was scary, Adrian said.
" You didn't get to hear the end, Treat her nicely...I ran to my room.
" What's with her ???? I wonder if the trip was fun…." Aishhh she's my favorite person in the world right now, Adrian laughed.