"What makes a person suicidal?"
Being asked that question is really hard for me to answer since I have never really thought about this before. But still, it does make me wonder: what makes them do it? Just why? What made them hate life so much that they wanted to end their lives so easily? What about the time they spent growing up? Were they never happy? What about their family? Friends? I would never understand them.
"What are you thinking about?"
Sarah stared at me as I realised that I was daydreaming. Again, She just sighed as she told me that I should pay attention to my surroundings more if I don't want to be robbed someday. Okay, I wonder how it escalated to that.
"I was just thinking about something weird."
I replied as she gave me a frown. Sarah, won't stop asking until I tell her what's been on my mind or, to her, what's been bugging me for a while now.
"And what is it?"
She urged me to tell her, but I decided to shrug it off since I have another class after this. I can't bring myself to be late again. It's going to look bad for my merit.
"I'll tell you about it later. See you after school!"
I waved her goodbye as she just sighed in annoyance. Sometimes, it makes me wonder how we became friends since we are the opposite of each other. But thanks to Sarah, my college life is no longer boring with her around to annoy me every day.
I was walking to my next class when I noticed someone from my class. Who's taking the class with me this period? But I wonder why they are not going. It's not really my business, but I already noticed them, so I might feel guilty about it later on if I didn't call out for them. I was about to call their names but I got cut off after hearing them talking about something they shouldn't really talk about here. of all places.
"Why won't you kiss me? You don't even want to touch me anymore."
The boy, Simon Ferret, if I'm not mistaken, said desperately to the other boy in front of him. He looked like he was about to cry his eyes out while Thomas Dios, the boy standing with him, had a troubled look on his face. I didn't mean to hear them. Heck, I never intended to in the first place, but it would be awkward to come out now.
"I'm sorry, but we talked about this, right? We can't do any of that in public."
Thomas Dios replied as he hugged the other boy, Simon. Okay, I'm just going to call them by their first names from now on since mentioning him as the boy and the other boy is really weird and makes me confused. Thomas was trying to calm him down. Of course, I was surprised to see them like that. I can't say that I'm not shocked since they both look so... normal. I mean, they're surrounded by girls flirting with them every single day, so it was really weird and shocking to see them be together instead.
"Don't stare too much. It makes you look like a perverted stalker."
A voice whispered something to me. Someone was breathing down on my neck as I was even more surprised by that. I mentally cursed that person as I turned around to see him staring down at me with a bored look on his face. Just who the heck is he?
"Lucas? What are you doing there?"
Just freaking great.
Thomas said as he and Simon made their way to me and the person whose name is Lucas. Oh no, they're going to find out that I accidentally listened to their whole conversation. And now that I see them, I just realised how I'm going to be late for my class. Wow. Simon noticed me as his face flushed pink. Okay? Did he realise that I was listening to his desperation to be touched by his partner? Oh no.
"I was on my way to class when I noticed this weird-looking person was eavesdropping on your conversation."
Oh my goodness, I seriously hate him.
My jaw literally dropped when he said that. I mean, yes, I admit that I am eavesdropping on their conversation. Yes, my bad. But telling me off right away? Oh god. How I wish I had just ignored them earlier. This is so embarrassing for me. To be caught listening to others' private conversations. Oh my God, why am I so busybody?
"What?"
Thomas was staring at me with wide eyes. I can't really tell if he's pissed or just shocked at me considering his facial expression is really hard to understand. And I don't really know what to say to them... Should I just say sorry for listening in and leave? This is really hard.
"Wait! No! Shit. I'm sorry! I never intended for this to happen— I just saw you guys and thought I'd tell you that if you keep dawdling, you'll be late for Professor Hillman's class— AGH! We're late!"
I was catching my breath as they stared at me as if I had lost my mind. I did, actually. They kept staring at me and didn't say anything for a moment, which is really weird since I just confessed that I really am eavesdropping, but why are they not saying anything?
"Who are you?"
Thomas's eyebrows were furrowed as he continued to glare at me. He hates me for sure. And I can't help but laugh at the fact that he, or they, don't know who I am. Well, thinking about it again, it does make sense since I don't really hang around with their crowd. A part of me was glad that he didn't know about my existence since a thought just crossed my mind, Well yes. I did think of running off from there since I already said sorry, but Lucas grabbed me by the collar—I mean, not that kind of situation where he's going to start punching me but the situation where I have no where to run since I am stuck.
great.