I stared blankly at my book, as my mind kept wandering at Chris's words, even though it has been months since he used those words GETTING PLAYED. It is already a new semester, the first one into my second year at the University.
It has always been a morning anthem for Chris to remind me to be careful around boys. As much as that sounds a little bit off, I still listened to his instructions, staying closer to the girls than the boys.
My attraction for Christopher keeps deaccelerating every day, as I am beginning to see him in a new form, more like a guardian. I once asked him whether he still has feelings for me but his response is vague, filled with uncertainty. Most of the time, he changed the topic ignoring what I asked him.

He still goes for his part-time job, which gave me the vibes that he might still not have gotten over me. Maybe I'm overthinking but when I am conscious of something, it is always true or close to it. I have no other choice but to hope my thoughts about Chris are wrong.
I felt someone's hand over my face, covering my eyes as I held the hand. The hand released itself only for me to figure out it was Abigael, my coursemate, my friend, and the person I have been crushing on since the first week of this semester.
She was the sassy type, tho well behaved, with a good heart. She never pretends to be someone else, which made me like her. It is just a crush, and it will fade away with time. I'm quite happy I developed feelings for the opposite sex lose to 2years after I had my first crush. Having 7 attractions of the same sexes which gives me creeps and a bitter feeling especially when I reminisce about Chris warning.
"Isn't It too early to read? It is just two weeks into this semester", Abigael said, finding a seat beside me.
" Oh! I can't seem to stop reading anywhere. You arrived quite early", I said and she nodded.
I was the only one in the lecture room before Abigael joined me. I glanced at my wristwatch, realizing we had an extra 1hour and 10 minutes before the lecture today, that is, if we are going to have one.
Abigael placed her right hand on mine, giving me goosebumps. I know she likes me but things are getting a bit awkward with just two of us in the lecture room. We started at each other, my eyes flickered noticing her new hair look of Ghana weaving. Her pink short gown reached below her knee.
I felt lost for a bit in my teen fantasy as I felt her leaned closer. My heartbeat is fast as I realized what might happen. I need to stop this. A few inches away, I moved my head away, as Abigael sat back, a hint of disappointment in her eyes.
"Michael. Look into my eyes and tell me you don't like me?", she whispered, her voice hoarse with a bit of sadness.
" I like you too", and for a second I saw a happy glint of hope in her eyes,
"But I don't think we should take it to the next level", And the ray of hope in his eyes faded.
" We are still teenagers and the feelings we have are likely based on crush or infatuation. It can fade away with time", I explained, trying to avoid gazing at her.
"Is that enough reason not to be in a relationship with me?", she asked, holding my hand.

My mind flashed back to my declaration when I discovered my feelings for the same sex. I promised myself not to get into any relationship not until I'm sure I can no longer develop feelings for the same sex.
Even though that is just a part of my reasons, I can't accept being in a relationship with Abigail. There is a big difference between love and a crush.
" But….", She tried to talk but she could not make out any words.
"I appreciate that you had a feeling for me. I cherish that as well as our friendship, but I hope you understand this decision of mine, which I believe from my trained conscience that is right", I stated, looking at her.
She removed her hand as she adjusted her posture.
" I understand you too. I feel happy that the feeling I have for you is unrequited. I will wait for you", she said, as I tried to tell her something, but she raised her hand to stop me.
I relaxed as I listened to her.
"You are the coolest person I have ever met. You are handsome and also have good qualities. I hope you continue to display these qualities of yours all the time", she said as I blushed slightly, mouthing a 'thank you'
" If what you said about our feelings is true, that it might fade away with time, then I will just cherish the moment we shared. Hopefully, it will fade soon", she remarked, and I smiled at her understanding.
We both continue talking, mostly about how we spent our holiday, and I must confess I laughed a million times at her talks. She is really fun to be and I know I made the right decision about both of us.
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I could not hide my excitement as I headed out of the mentor's office. Some of the Medicine and Surgery students will be merging with some of the Pharmacy students. I'm pretty sure my coursemates will be so thrilled to hear the news.
"Goodnews guys", I announced prompting everyone to stop what they were doing. The backbenchers hurried to the front, anxiously waiting for the news. Some even made a bet to decide who is merging with our department. Some going for Chemistry department, the other Medicine department. As much as that sounds, I still feel the bet was stupid.
", We are eagerly waiting for the news. Is it the cool Chemistry students or the Nerdy nerd Medicine student", Samuel, the class humorist commented everyone agreeing to what Samuel said?
"Ok, the Nerdy nerd Medicine students are joining us", I announced as excitement grew in most of the student's faces. Only a few wore a disappointed look, probably the Chemistry fans, lol.
Everyone kept gisting as I informed them to show their warm and nice gestures to some of the Medicine students who will be taking a course with us for a semester.
The door opened as some of the Medicine students emerged. I watched as everyone kept chatting as if they have known each other for a long time. I guess we, the Pharmaceutical students are the social butterflies in this school", I thought.
The noise in the lecture room knew no bound. Thankfully, our lectures for today have been canceled. I made my way up the stairs of our lecture room which has become wide and big as I caught a glimpse of 4 boys who just entered our lecture room. I stopped, observing them as two of them have their back turned against me.
For some split second, I noticed something. He looks like him. It can't be him, right? He is in another university,' I thought, grimacing at my thought.
They stopped laughing making their way towards me. I was shocked as I saw him.
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