It's been a few days since Luna and I called, I still haven't chatted with her, actually all I've been doing is writing poems.
"Hi bro" said Nilen
"Oh it's you, sit down" I said
"Thank you pre, wait pre what is that?" He asked for my sketch pad
"It's not for Lexiana"
"Look? It's a nice drawing, is it really him?" Nilen asked
"Maybe yes" I said
"My brother is lucky to have you"
"Oh, you"
"Read the POEM, can you?" Nilen said
"Go for it"
My Luna
~bry
I may hear your silence beside me,
Watching you from afar makes me down,
Drifting you words by word,
And Broken Promises take advantage.
Leaving you hurt me all the time,
I hate to see you on my way
We aren't for each other,
We aren't committed to each other.
Releasing you is killing me,
I used to move but you release me,
Upon this world with a drown journey,
You let me down and I know from the start,
That you already have some.
Hope you wait to see me again,
See you next year,
I guess this is already the time to let you go,
Good Bye. SEE YOU SUNSET.'
"That pain will go away," said Nilen
"It looks like he already has one" I said with a frown
"It's so fast," said Nilen, almost frowning
"I don't know but that's my instincts" I said
"Chat with him now, talk to him to clear your mind" he patted my shoulder and then said goodbye
"Alright"
"I'm going out first, because I still have class"
"Alright, good luck"
"You too boy!" He said and completely left
I immediately contacted Lexiana
A little ring and he answered it
"What do you need?" Luna said
"I want to talk to you"
"Are you going to fight me again?" he asked
"No, I'm sorry for what I did the last time we talked"
"It hurts to talk there, it's like nothing happened"
"I'm sorry if I said those words" I said
"What are you doing now that you've been summoned?"
"You don't miss me?"
"no"
"Really? You really don't miss me?"
"Yes and I really don't miss you" he said
Ouch
"What can I do to make you miss me?"
"Simple don't call me and cut the communication just like that"
"I do not want"
"Why?"
"I don't want to be far from you, I don't want to lose my feelings for you" I said
"You know Bryle, honestly, just find someone else, it's too early but I'm already rejecting you, because you don't deserve my love, so the best thing is to just forget about me and don't rely on me anymore because you have no hope in me" said Lexiana
"Really Luna? Am I really hopeless?" I said
"Yes, nothing really" he said making me cry
I turned off the cam and turned off the mic button, I cried in pain
"I hope you get it one day, I'm sorry if I'm late, but you really need to know" said Luna "Are you crying? Why are you off cam and off your mic too? Bryle? Where are you still?"
"Yes, I'm still here" I opened the mic button but not the cam, I'm here but I'm not in your heart anymore"
"I'm sorry Bryle, it's just that we're not meant for each other" he said
"Alright, this is the last call, be careful, for the last time I love you" I said and hung up
How can I focus now, I'm losing my appetite for everything, maybe it's time to transfer to my law school, it's just painful because unexpected events are happening.
It's vacation next week, so what I'm going to do is freshen up so they can see me a little better, because academics are stressful right now.
And a few weeks ago, before I completely forgot about Lexiana, I put a letter in her Gmail and here is my letter to her
Dear Luna,
Hi Luna, how are you? It's been a long time since our last conversation, I just want to remind you that I still love you, I was afraid that I'll lose you someday, your just like a triumph to me every time I speak your name you set me fine, I felt sorry for what I did to you, sorry for my wrongful doings, I know I'm not sorry enough right now but I hope you know that I'm only here.
I heard you and Luke already, it hurts to accept that you have someone else, I'm here loving you but you know what hurts, I'm not the one you love anymore, it took me a lot of months and years to think no I can count, I loved you but I know it's not enough for you to come back, I know your happy with him.
I think this would be the letter that it will be last forever, always remember my name if you want to, I can't promise anything to you, but I think when you come back I will be with someone else, I already accepted the fact that you are a big loss in my heart, I just now realize everything is too late for me, I can't even say it but thank you for everything Lexiana.
Love,
Bryle
I sent the letter and deleted all the memories that reminded me, Luke Anthony is her boyfriend at the moment, I was not there.
I may be part on her memories but still the things that happened are different, he has been courting her for a long time since she was just a senior in high school, which Nilen told me all about and I realize that even if they stayed together then they didn't they will be in the end because I know in my heart that he still loves me no matter what happens.
I love you Lexiana, Til' the end.