Such a dream place where I began, you and me meet already, supposedly something relevant to it. I came to realize that you were just on my side, but I still chased the man who didn't love me. But even if I ask for more, it still won't match all the hardships I'm going through. Even I say that I have crush on you still it won't change, I failed to reach you began with it, commonly I used to lie when you talk, I just want to disappear from now cause I don't know what's going on right now, I just don't feel anything okay this time.
I don't know what place I look at some point I think I'm not the person you love, it's Yessha not me and all I can do is to accept you in the way that I'm just a friend. I accept that even if it's not really me, there is something in your heart, for sure it's not me, even in a small world it seems that's where you can find true perfection. It's still happening, you can't predict where it is, you're looking for an answer, in the cold weather you think you'll find warm weather here, but the fog of destiny seems hopeless because if you hope you'll only get hurt in the end. Even if I try to say that you are for me, it will not change because you will fall for someone else and not for me.
Is it fate that approaches or does it leave on purpose, is it just time to stare at the time that is needed?
Why is it that if you sometimes think that you are worthless in the world, the deluge will come?
Why is everything centered but still uncertain?
I'm about to go to school, because of all my preparation, I'm ready to go to school right away, my dad has already brought me, it's our first week of school today, it's my first time to experience it again, with so much time now yet, I already have a friend, Miance, she is my best friend now, we are new but we got along right away, because of our haste I bumped into someone, we looked at each other
"Sorry, Miss." The guy said
"It's not okay" I said
"Are you sure?"
"Yes"
"Alright, I'll go first" he said
"Alright"
That's because Luna, in your haste, you bumped into someone, it's been a long time since you've bumped into someone, fate is so cruel, it seems you didn't think that, it was late when we got to the classroom, it's a good thing and it wasn't too strict and nothing it's just us. Nobody assumes that's what happened, because Luna, you really have no shame, look at the person, you'd think that's what happened. I went to the classroom and immediately sat on the side, I don't know much here, it's just funny because my friends have only been selected, that's fine with me and I don't expect any other headaches. My day went better when the discussion was over, it was crazy, I kept feeling disappointed because it turned out that he was the one I bumped into, he was a mestizo but he was kind at first sight
'Stop heart, that's not for you, don't assume, it's hard.'
My line is only jejemon, it's unexpected because I know it's going to be different, as always I'm going to have a hard time here
I say in my mind, but in words I'm afraid to say if I could just hint I would really do it. 1st week, the cringe of the incident actually hit someone, I didn't expect this incident, we were let out and now we went down, we were on the second floor so we still needed to go down, when we went out we were surprised by the sound system, we found I have other grade levels there. My day is too chaotic today and the happenings are one after the other, I just don't know how to do it well even though I know I'm a busy person, I can't imagine I could continue to have fun but don't be ashamed, nothing I am in the mood to pay attention to the ambitious.
This is where I will really be tested
"Ms. My friend likes you" Shouted a man near me
I was surprised by what a man said, it seems to be far away, if I look at the way it is different it seems to be unexpected. I thought it was not like that but nothing has changed.
"Hi Miss." The other one was also pissed off
I just smiled as an answer, I don't know any of them and I have no intention of getting to know them, they are in Grade 10, while I'm in Grade 9, I don't want the incident to be a debacle like I don't care, it's really a rivalry, it's just high school but there are a lot of people around me, I'm not famous, why are they approaching me? I don't know, I just noticed that it's going differently, especially from what I didn't expect, it was only 1 week ago but I didn't think that this would happen. Right here it's really strange, suddenly everything is perfect, what can we do?
We were also sent back immediately because we knew we still had class, we thought we would just watch but it turned out not to be, so we couldn't do anything but continue our seatwork, sometimes I was annoyed by their behavior. After we got back, we immediately started working because after the morning class, it needed to be passed. I'm going home and Celestina is going home with me, we have different classrooms but the same level in St. Mary School, they actually get along well, because I once shared a dorm with them, Aveline, Alera and Celestina, there are only 4 of us and that's fine with me, there are quite a few of us but the dorm is still spacious even though we know how to organize everything, we each have our own study table so that no one is disturbed when someone is working on projects, I left school because I want to try a more difficult strategy in life, I learned a lot on a daily basis especially in expenses, and how I can save money, I don't let him but here I can handle it all.
Celestina and I walked together and headed to the dorm.
"How is your day Luna?" Celestina asked
"I bumped into something when I was about to enter"
"Well who?" He raised his eyebrows as he asked
"A mestizo? But he doesn't seem to study here" I said
He screamed, with the force of it I almost covered my ears
"Is that so?"
"Is he there?" He seems interested
"It's obvious"
"Do we still have stocks in the dorm?"
"There's more"
"Good"
"It's hard because sometimes you don't have stocks, your life will be really blurry then"
"You're right, let's go and do what needs to be done"
"Alright"