It's been two days after what just happened. He continues to lock his window and his curtain, not letting me see what he is doing. What happened that night was a mistake, he must be drunk or what... He did not mean anything about the thing he did. "About what?" I look at the guy who spoke.
"For how long you're in here?" I ask Ayden.
"Since you said 'He did not mean anything about the thing he did.'" He made his way beside me in the bed. "Who? Hunter or other guys? What did he do to you?" My tears slowly filled my eyes as soon as my eyes look past his window and it doesn't change.
"Why does he need to play with my feelings? Because of him, it's hard to forget him now. Because of him, he keeps on bothering me since I move in here doesn't make things easier. At the fact that me and his room we're just across together... I can't..." I hug him, tears falling to my cheeks now.
"He took my first kiss, second kiss, and third kiss that was supposed to get by my husband. Hunter was my first love, and it doesn't mean he can be my husband and— Ayden... I don't know what to do now. It hurts." He hugged me back.
"Shh," Was all he did to make me calm.
"He said I am beautiful, and I don't know if it was true or not... And, he said Melanie and him was now nothing but why I felt like he's taking advantage of my feelings towards him to played me? He's a notorious playboy in our school, I don't want to feel being used."
"He won't. Promise, he won't."
"You want him? Then fight for him. You ask your heart if you love him; don't be afraid of admitting it to yourself. If you don't want to fight then try to confess because it is only the way for your feelings to vanish to someone, especially when he's your first love. Now, ask your heart and let your heart answer the question about it then you'll know if you will fight or turn around."
"I admit it to myself now, I love him. However, I don't want to fight for him, I don't want to interfere his life with his girlfriend."
"I understand. When the time comes, you and he will be able to have fun together."
Another day passed, and Hunter still not seeing each other and it is killing me. It is making me break into tears every night, knowing me and him don't have a chance and I did Ayden said, but I still didn't get an answer from it but I am being patient to know the answer. Whatever the answer is, I will accept and if I love him then I would fight for him.
Today is Friday, afternoon, and I am here in my room, doing nothing but to feel my chest, beating normally, looking up at the ceiling. "YEIIIIIII!" Some people shout. I stand from my bed and made my way to the window to see if what is happening down there.
As I look outside, Many people were gathered in Hunter's backyard as my heart beats normally just a little minute ago was now beating fast than it usually. My eyes look around to see Melanie was walking to the side of their house to where the crowd was with a flower in her hand level in her chest.
Soon, Hunter came out from nowhere with a rose in his hand and made his way to her. My eyes get teary knowing what he is doing. Why it has become true? So that kiss was just nothing to him? And his compliment was nothing? He aforesaid he and she are now over, is it just a lie and want me to be one of his toys?
Shit! He takes advantage of my feeling. I keep on cursing to myself, the heart was now aching from the sight, I see them smiling, giggling, and chuckling while dancing with the soft music in the background.
We're just enemies! Yes, enemies! I shouldn't be feeling this way to him, our college life was now over so his presence in my life will be gone. He will never see me do this and that since he's going to leave my book sooner. He has found his princess, his treasure, and the person who will stay by his side.
I won't be the person who will be his side for the rest of his life. We're nothing new, we're now done making our chapter. He left me after graduation, which means, he left my life. He doesn't feel the same, so he didn't stay for a while to celebrate with me, Shane, and our other classmate.
I watch them being the lovely dove and my whole world crashed after I saw Hunter kneeling on his one knee and takes something in his pocket making my heart breaks into many pieces. This is the— this is the saddest thing I have ever seen. I turn around and slam my window closed and walk to my bed and cover the pillow to my head and shout my pain to it.
I don't know what to do now, for real. Maybe it's time to let go..? I thought I will forget my feelings for Hunter when I went back to my hometown but guess what? It only gets stronger and stronger, day by day, year by year.
To be continued.