it was August 1996 when our mom wake up my brother to send our goat outside to eat beside the river and my brother ask me to follow him bcs we had almost 60head means someone needed to help I was off from the school and forced by my mom I follow my brother.I asked for food to my mom and she answered to come back fast and she will be cooking a dishe I really love happy we started to go with the crowd of the goat and when we reach the river we start to play and swim with other children we also found some late watermelon in the plantation and we eat little around 2pm I told to my brother to rush and go home bcs I was starving for food and like this we go back.when I reach home I run in the kitchen to check for food but I was disappointed nothing there no food i shout name of my mom she didn't answer and I start to check for her I go out in the garden no one.I go in her room nothing and I ask my grandma the answer was I don't know nothing I become confused.and I told her you are here all the day how you don't know ??.when I open the visitors room my father lying down like a dead and white foam in his mouth he was again super drunk i didn't make any noise .but I steal he's cigarette under the table after I just go in my room to change my clothes and I found my mom in my bed covering half body with my bedsheets imagine a adult in one 12years old child bed I finish changing my wet clothes and I call her to wake up but she didn't answer I open ther cover and when I saw she had bruise in the lips one big cut in the upper left eyes and big wound in the forehead everything was covered with her blood I become shock didn't move or talk I shout to her to wake up I shake her arms but nothing happened I run in our small refrigerator and I take some ice and I put in her chest she opened the eyes and said please let me relax little more and I will cook my world become dark clouds my blood finish and my face become yellow.i run in the cow house and I was crying crying crying alone I remembered the old gun and I unwrap it I took in my shaking hands and I go in the visitors room where my father was laying down I touched him in the chest and I shout to him he was half awake and tried to stand up while telling wait I will kill you also with that toy In my hand.my eyes become blurred and the tears not stopping.I didn't wait more long I just press the gun in his chest I heard the first explosion and the gun fall down with the second unwanted bam.I run I took my shoes and the new leather jacket my mom gift and I run outside in nowhere with no one around I started walking and running in the mountains with a small steel in my hand with the cigarette of my father and my jacket for almost 1 month I didn't know what I make or where I was that time the days going and I become sick and unhealthy.I was eating grass unripe fruits also garbage and everything possible I was so far from my house.the nights was so difficulty for me when I was walkingmany dogs from the streets hunting me and I become a professional runner and I started to move with many stones in my pocket for making the dogs scared like that I survived the nights the sun comes out shiny but the land was frozen in mountains have already snow i was more than one month for from my family without any update about what happened there I didn't know if I really kill my father or if my mom still alive maybe she keep waiting downside the gate for me with my preferred dishes or maybe my brother still needed for my help.like that the days was rolling and I was just trying hard to not go back bcs I was worried about what i make and what the people will tell me.like that I was in one other city sitting in one old stadium and holding my head in my hands crying from the pain my stomach hurts and my foots was swollen.my clothes smells like a dead human.I was sitting and I saw one silhouette to approach me .slowly slowly I make ready my small steel bar and I make ready.also one bigstone in my right hand ready to attack I hold my breath and also my tears.I was just waiting to defend my self and to run after